Warrior

As darkness sweep the sky, the cats and dogs outside, wind blowing from every direction harboring this chill a chill I call unhappiness. Echoes upon echoes words upon words but never one understood the meaning behind those words. "Express yourself!" they say Maybe it's too indirect but if it direct, what'll it be? The sun, its light shining bright Darkness gone, and cats and dogs gone. Should this sun get hold of my heart? And shower it with warmth and happiness? Lies! Why does the sun burn me? Why is this heat too much to bear? Why is it too bright and mars my vision? I lost dark and day. Yes, I lost the meaning of life, and no one cares....

 I've been reading Healing The Invisible Wound  by Dr Ahmad Rostam, Dr Rozanizam and Dr Alizi Alias. This would be my second time reading the book because of its mutual understanding of what I've been facing. From moving on to how to go through trauma. It is a really good book to read, start until end. I bought it at PBAKL 2 months ago, but sadly, I wasn't able to attend their meet & greet as I was occupied with life. However, PBAKL'23 was great -- I get to see Hilal Asyraf again and bought his books and let him signed each one of them. Enough PBAKL'23. I am here to write the things that I learned from the said book. I might share each topic in its own post -- but as of now, I'm going to focus on topic one : move on. I am someone who is not suitable when talking about moving on as I've been lingering and stuck in the past and let that conquered my mental well-being. I had wished to move on so much, but that isn't easy -- in fact, it's difficult f...

  [12/032016] There was a heated discussion about people who self-diagnose and self-proclaim of having a certain illnesses, usually mental illness. It all began when one lady admitted publicly on social media that she suffered depression, anxiety and social anxiety. It is a rare sight and occasion for this to happen, though. I find that the discussion should be taken seriously and with precaution. First and foremost, if I were to be asked of my own opinions, no, I do not like people who self-diagnose, but then again thinking back about it, our lack of awareness and understanding of mental illness and mental health itself has caused this problem to prolong. I find it unfair to only blame the people who self-diagnose for their unethical diagnosis. I find it to be cruel to bash them for their lack of understanding and awareness. For all we know, their diagnosis might be true! Rather than bashing them out about it, why not take that chance and help and educate them while they're at the...