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23 May

What day is it today? It's my birthday! I don't want to celebrate it, but I do like to be aware of this day. The question for this year : what do I want in this life. All these years, all I wanted to do is talk about mental health and its importance. That has been my goal ever since diploma. To be someone who helps people. But... People always tell me that I need to focus on myself first and others second. Maybe I need to learn how to do that. I'm in my 30's now and I should act like one. What word is best at describing my life right now? Confused. That's the word : confused. Each birthday I ask myself the same question. What do I want in this life. I want to be a part of society, especially sharing about mental health. I want to learn and educate myself and others about mental health. I used to be soooooo active and so full of information, but now I am stuck with the little knowledge that I know. I read and watch videos about mental health, read books about it, lea...
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The month of Syawal!

 MasyaAllah, it has been awhile since I last posted something. I was enjoying the month of Ramadhan that I have forgotten to write anything about it, and now it's the month of Syawal! The month where we celebrate the end of Ramadhan and rejoice with accomplishments and joy. Last year my brother and his family came from Labuan to celebrate. This year my little sister is here and I am out of this world! I have always been this clingy sister to my brother and sisters, so yes, my clinginess can be so annoying, but who cares! I love them to bits! However, I might say, there would be a part of me being disappointed with people during this Eid. Why do we condemn people when we can pick each other up and progress? Why can't we be kind and empathetic? Why must we say hurtful things? In this month of Syawal, we try to ask for forgiveness and spread joy and love. Remind each other that there are many kinds of people and there might be a part of them that doesn't find our presence comf...
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2026

 I have published a post about the new year, but some good part of it made me sigh in self disappointment. Should I blame others? No, I shouldn't. But, it's all in the past now. I just hope it stays as the past where I would learn self-control and discipline. I need a new boost of confidence for 2026 to make a change in my life. My idle life. As always, a new year means a new set of resolutions. The only resolutions that I have for 2026 would be to live healthily and to be able to read 2 books per month. The former is scary, but I used to be fit, so there's no reason for me not to be fit again. Who knows... It could boost my confidence. Probably would make me feel good about myself -- for once after this past few years. Now... For my reading goal this year, I think I can achieve 2 books per month, so total would be 24 books for this year. I only managed to read 8 books last year, so I really need to have this resolution in order for me to (at least) achieve my target. Howev...
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