23 May

What day is it today? It's my birthday!
I don't want to celebrate it, but I do like to be aware of this day.

The question for this year : what do I want in this life.

All these years, all I wanted to do is talk about mental health and its importance. That has been my goal ever since diploma. To be someone who helps people. But... People always tell me that I need to focus on myself first and others second. Maybe I need to learn how to do that. I'm in my 30's now and I should act like one.

What word is best at describing my life right now?
Confused.
That's the word : confused.

Each birthday I ask myself the same question. What do I want in this life.
I want to be a part of society, especially sharing about mental health. I want to learn and educate myself and others about mental health. I used to be soooooo active and so full of information, but now I am stuck with the little knowledge that I know. I read and watch videos about mental health, read books about it, learn from others who has it worse, share what I can, and live life with the principle that I am a somebody in people's lives.

But... I am lacking that now. I had stopped talking and sharing about mental health. So...

I guess, that's it.

Happy birthday, Mardyati.

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