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2026

 I have published a post about the new year, but some good part of it made me sigh in self disappointment. Should I blame others? No, I shouldn't. But, it's all in the past now. I just hope it stays as the past where I would learn self-control and discipline. I need a new boost of confidence for 2026 to make a change in my life. My idle life. As always, a new year means a new set of resolutions. The only resolutions that I have for 2026 would be to live healthily and to be able to read 2 books per month. The former is scary, but I used to be fit, so there's no reason for me not to be fit again. Who knows... It could boost my confidence. Probably would make me feel good about myself -- for once after this past few years. Now... For my reading goal this year, I think I can achieve 2 books per month, so total would be 24 books for this year. I only managed to read 8 books last year, so I really need to have this resolution in order for me to (at least) achieve my target. Howev...
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Aku adalah aku.

Andailah dapat jadi seperti mereka. Gah gemilang dalam segala apa dalam kehidupan. Aku di sini hanya menanti dan terus menanti. Belum tiba masanya lagi, tapi tetap ditembak dengan peluru kata yang menyakitkan. Bukannya aku tak mencuba, tapi aku cuba setiap hari. Aku bukan mereka; mereka sentiasa dapat apa yang mereka hajati. Aku? Aku tersekat dek batas segala. Aku tidak minta apa-apa pun. Aku hanya inginkan doa. Doa agar aku mampu menjalani hidup ini dengan baiknya sepertimana baiknya hidup untuk kalian. Benar. Aku juga mungkin dapat apa yang diingini, tapi itu berbeza. Aku bukan kalian. Namun... Kalian jugalah batu yang membantu untuk aku kembali stabil dalam hidup yang penuh onar ini. Kalian jugalah yang menadah tangan untuk aku pegang. Kalian jugalah tempat aku bersadu rasa. Kalian jugalah jantung hati hidup aku. Jadi, kenapa aku hendak merungut? Benar. Aku tidak sama seperti orang lain. Benar, aku hanyalah menusia yang darjatnya tidak tinggi menggunung. Benar, akulah orang yang tid...
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A true warrior

Today we were greeted with a news of the passing of Nur Areefah, a strong mental health warrior, who co-found Malaysian Mental Care Association. She fought a long battle with cancer and has been the most prominent people in sharing and advocating about mental health. Her passing was truly felt as people kept pouring out stories, wonderful stories, about her, her humour, her personality and her professionalism. She was non-stop with all her job and made it a safe place to share about mental health. I have observed her for years, and despite only have had met her 4 times, and it was years ago, I can still feel her wonderful ambiance. Her wonderful way to greet people with open arms and never even complain when she was battling cancer for all these years. I am a witness to all her strength, hard work and contributions that she has made into the world of mental health in Malaysia. Her passing was shared amongst all the people she had helped, and that includes me. Her passing made me reflec...
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